I think everything you’ve said is correct. Raziel is just one tired, done, and angry boi, and he even says that it wasn’t worth it in the end, after he regained control over himself. Only after he could actually think, did he consider the fact that Kain was probably right, but it was after he was gone, and Raziel would never be able to know the rest of what he thought again… though I think he does manage to put everything together at the end, which is why he accepts his fate in the reaver

raaziiel:

Yeah I think that his act of self-sacrifice at the end is sort of the conclusion to his redemption arc and the sign that he finally matured and understood the meaning of what happened and his purpose. It’s like he finally used his righteousness for a good purpose, and not to hypocritically justify his actions. I really really love his arc, even if it meant that he, in a sense, died. 😦

Honestly, the last time I played Defiance, when I realized Raziel was actually laughing, it was very unsettling… it’s pretty much proof that he probably went momentarily crazy, or just completely lost all control… it doesn’t sound like sane laughter either, plus we all know it isn’t like him to even laugh… the cathedral scene has so many feels in it

raaziiel:

Same, it actually took me a bit to understand that it was Raziel and not Kain because I just couldn’t believe it. When I realized it, I understood that Raziel had indeed gone mad at that point, both because of the hylden possession (even though tbh it seemed to only augment his anger), but especially because he was just so done with everything. The moment he lost hope was after the encounter with Mortanius (you could really see an expression of surrender on his face, for the first time in the whole series), so during the meeting he had with Kain he couldn’t do much but have pretty much a breakdown despite Kain trying to calm him down. He was just tired of being used by everyone and wanted, for once, to do what HE wanted to do… Which sadly meant resurrecting Janos and thus causing the Hylden invasion. What really hit me also was how he started believing blindly in the prophecies of the ancient vampires, despite the fact that he always believed in free will.